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CHAPTER 16.
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SNOWYY 
FELICIA ONGTainLin, Snowyy, sisters, pink, pink panter, hello kitty. standing still, waiting round to see if its real. on earth since 11November |
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Thursday, July 31, 2008  i can't prevent the tears from rolling down. But i faked a smile, preventing you from seeing my tears): i know your anwser already, it's just too obvious. i can't take it anymore. there's too many things happening at one go, i can't handle it): or did you? i just can't help it, but laughed at your stupid jokes even when i'm down. those jokes aren't for me, i know. unfortunately, the more i wanted to hate you, the more i fall into love with you. i just can't help it, why you?! because of you, my life's confused, my world upsidedown.): it's killing me inside when you tried making her laugh. i asked you, but you didn't bother answering me. but you gladly answers her when she asked. WHAT'S THIS?! i really can't take it anymore, i kept on crying &crying. the more i think about it, the more it hurts; the more i wanted leave this world. i simply can't forget the times alone with you. you were so sweet): i'm not like her, i can't talk face toface. how much i hope that you will know,): but it's just asmuchas how much i'm afraid that you'll know. i'm always faking a smile, afraid that i'll hurt the ganqing wib my friends, but i realli can't take it. so sometimes i chose to show my unhappyness but you guys dun seemed to like me showing my real feeling inside me. sometimes i showed attitude; i know &i'm sorry. but i just can't help it. whenever i showed my feelings, it becamed my fault. what should i do then? i can't even make a slightest mistake. i seriously don't like this but i know that i can't expect everyone to tolerate me. i want to diediediediediediedie! donutdonutdonut
Wednesday, July 30, 2008  i felt so lost seeing you unhappy): i'm not unhappy;no moodswings; not emoing today(: just lost.(in case someone named lynn trys killing me) LOL! today maths lesson mrs toh come back): she call us to go back to our seats &i'm sitting RIGHT INFRONT OF HER!): dhen she say i sometym listen sometym nev listen, that's why some i noe some idk. LOLS(: yea after that went to camilla's house along with JeeNee &ZiJing to do HomeEcon project. dhen i went back sch to pass MrSiva th NYAA thingy, ALONE): dhen went back up again to finish up our projects. hav greatgreat fun ther(: kept laughing LOLS! reached home, did my MATHEMATICS homwork, dhen bathed &onlined(: idk how to do th maths narhs): okay that's all for todayyyyyyyy. GOODBYE(: tag replies Eugene: wher got?): didn't hearrr,sorry narhs. &&it dosen't matter to me anymore, but i still wouldn't give up. i fake a smile.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008  boy, i love you tons &tons. seeing her makes you smile, my heart hurts. i aren't fit to be the person beside you. i could feel th arrows pierecing through when u smile at her; it broke, then it shattered. &now i'm left with nothing. moodswings? not really, they are just words unspoken. yea i sucks): got caught cause my skirt's too SHORT?! wher gotttttttttttttttttttt): after sch no NPCC. i'm glad(: went volleyball-ed wib camilla.P; N.xiangling; L.yanqi; L.xiaoyu; nicholas.DUNNO lyk i said, today's not th day for volleyball): i'm NOTNOTNOTNOT happyyyyyy;! veryveryvery not happy. camilla taught me about th 100questions, but i dun even have ONE question for you): "what's yours will be yours" someone told me. but it means that you're not mine): unfated i supposed? you're just too difficult for me to understand): are you faking a smile too? dhen am i too difficult for you guys to understand? i really don't know): there are too many words unspoken. &thus nobody knows. well, i don't lyk talking face-to-face. cause i will feel uncomfortable.): i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure i AM a failure tag replies. camilla: idk): sorry but i love you too(: i'm a failure.
Monday, July 28, 2008 sorry sisters. i can't help thinking negatively. i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you but yet, i love you): YOU are always th one spoiling my mood, YOU are always th one making me smile with lame jokes. mood swings, BECAUSE OF YOU! ): i wanted to give up, but just couldn't. so i'm never th person ther. no matter how hard i try/ WHYWHYWHYWHY?! you nev even ask me larhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! you guys simply i'm not a FRIEND. i'm jus a whatever! you guys treat me by your mood. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS! ): what's wrong with meeeee i'm not like this! T_______________________T so what does that means? always forgetting me, you you you you you you &you! arghssssssssssssss, y am i borned?! i hatehatehate this;! this time seriously i hope i CAN disappear ): i'm NOT emo;! it's just that i can't take it anymore. i wanna diediedie. maybe i don't deserve you guys to be my friend? ohfuxkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk): i'm a FOOL;RETARD;LETDOWN;FAILURE. ): 下一个天亮 .
25th july live shootinggggggggggggggg(: OMG. you must be so jealous xP it's a rare oppotunity okayyyyy. i got 12 in 3 out. notbadnotbad ;x &i got in th sch NDP thingy (: but not GOH bleahhhhh): 26th july silver testtttttttttttttttt;O i was damn nervous in th morning narhs. msged friends/(need some moral support LOLS) dhen blablabla. IT RAINED AGAIN! _|_ szc still say it's gng to be fun ._________. everytym i test jiu rain oneeeee ): it's lyk so damn cold in th water narhs;! but in th end i passed(: yeayyeayyeay! 27th july my mum dosen't love me at all): HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAMILLA TAOPOK;! bleah(: on your birthday we got egg relay LOLS! we waited for 1hr plus under th sun ): STUPID NARHS, ppl keep on cutting in.. at first i didn't drop my egg, but after i cross th line it dropped ;XXXX so not counted; i'm damn lucky narhs :D after tht trained to lot1 wib camilla yanqi xiangling xiaoyu andre gabriel joshua zhiguang &nichloas. (i think so..) dhen meet mummy &relatives (: hav dinner dhendhendhen, i bought my backpackkkkkkkkkkkk. finally :DD dhen ziying also buy LOLOLOL;! went home after that. 28 july nicholas's sick LOLS;! school as per normal but it sucks totally ): after sch hav maths retest, TOOTS;! i'm gng to fail again ): BLABLABLA. after sch actually intended to go &cut my hair one. but mummy bring daddy go see doc dhen i no moneyyyyy ._. so in th end i went to nicholas house wib camilla yanqi andre zhiguang chunho &joshua. his house so smelly LOLS;! after slacking for awhile went to cam's house/ she bathed, yanqi changed we ate donuts &choc cakeeee (: sonicesonicesonice;! dhendhendhen. went down, (intending to play volleyball) but daddy want me to go home alr. GROARS;! so i went home ): yeayeayeaaaaa. i'm tired of typing alrrrrrrrrrrrrr, some photos taken a zillion years ago shall do th talking (:  daddy bought this for $5 LOLS.    last tym my hand blueblack after playing volleyball ):   this lighter has a touchlight behind x) &it glows when u lit it up.  this's a ez-link card together wib cashcard. damn cool right): my bro's. i also wannnnnnnnnnnnnnn._.    one can really go mad doing MATHEMATICS (:      i've gone insane :DD   i bought this LOLS. cute right (:  ziying &gransmother (:  szc's a biantaiiii xP start anew
Thursday, July 24, 2008 new skin(: finally finished editinggggggggggg. i'm tiredtiredtired after such a long day. &i thought tht my blog's gng to DIE soon? ;| yea dis post is specially 'posted' to announce tht i'm offically done wib my new blogskinnnnnn(: pink &grey. gib some comments thanks cause idk is it's nice;\ &&& please ignore all my previous post (: i'm such a errrrrrr? LOLOLS. --- tag replies
Friday, July 18, 2008  The biggest mistake i've made ;c you didn't even told me;! --- tag replies Eugene, looYANQI: thanks for tagging;!  i'm th red one;c --- today's NPCC service day. blablabla, superduper BORING ._. && BRYAN GOH SUCKS TOTALLY narhs;! after tht went back to sch. & we got our rankk;! finally narhssss (: dhen after tht got two badge/ atc & third class drill badge. blablabla. i'm TIRED ;c oh &before i forget, mrs toh sooooooooooooo DUH. knn dun lyk her;c BLEAH.! --- don't read;x i said i love you, --- nobody taggg meeee ;c Thursday, July 17, 2008  ♥i need, miss, love you. --- i paid attention during MATHEMATICS lesson;! yeayyyyyy (: i realli wanna do well for my exams. ONGTAINLIN jyjyjy ._________. okay, hahas. lessons; after sch got th record challange thingy. after tht went to play volleyballllllllllllllllllllllllllllll;! i love volleyball ^^ borrowed ball frm sch (: thankyou edward &other people who helped us take th ball when it flew away x) thankyou people;! played until 4 30. hab to return th ball alr; thus return &went home (: which i dun want to talk about it anymore (: dhen while on th say out frm sch, got one guy behind us talking on th phone. &he talked lyk $#&&#$^$GAY^%&^%$ x) sorry if offended. but i couldn't help it &laughed out loud .___________. reach home, did my homeworks MATHEMATICS CHINESE HOME ECON (sorry for forgetting to reimnd camilla:() , bathed &onlined (: &idk wat's th freaking problem with my computer ): okay shall end here for todayyyyyyy. people please tag me ): &GOODBYE (: --- ಇ ಸೈಡ್ ಇ ಲವ್ ಯೌ, ಬ್ರೆನ್ದೊನ್ ಃಊಆ ಏಈ ಲಿಂಗ್;! ಇ ಲವ್ ಯೌ. ಎವೆನ್ ಇಫ್ ಯೌ ಕ್ನೌ ಹೌ ಟು ರೆಅದ್, & ಥಟ್ ಯೌ ವನ್ನ ಟೆಲ್. ಗೋ ಅಹೆಅದ್, ಇ'ವೆ ಅಲ್ರ್ ಗಿವೆನ್ ಅಪ್ ;c --- && BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB;! idcare wat you guys say alr. if you wanna say, go ahead. I'VE GIVE UP. Wednesday, July 16, 2008 our school won th volleyball comp today;) congrats. ---  i might as well, not be there. --- don't read;c hellnonono;! --- i participated in lessons today, but nearly fell asleep. LOLS;! after school bused to yiochukang(sch bus) dhen watch th matches, th place i'm sitting at was so DOWNDOWNDOWN;! okay at least afew of us were high;c th match was damn nice;! yea in th end, we won we won we won;! yeayyyyyyyy x) after tht bused back to school, took our bags dhen went home;) &my msg's gng to replenish today;! x)))))))))) okay, GOODBYE ;} --- tag replies Luciferzz: yea lor;c hahas, okkay ;} Tuesday, July 15, 2008  i love you girls;! --- I LOVE VOLLEYBALL;! i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; i love volleyball; volleyball rock my socks;! butbutbut, they make my hands pain ;c my hands blueblack alrrrrrrrr. GRRRS;! blablabla.___________________. i've gone insane; obviously narhs;! lessons as pernormal; went to yanqi's house ate &changed THANKS FOR THE SHIRT &LUNCH;! dhen bus(-ed) down to grabriel house ther volleyball(-ed) dhen went home. &&&&&&&&&&&&&&;! i did my homeworks ;) --- i've made up my mind. ---no matter how much i wanna drop out; how much i hate school; how much i hate th teachers &lessons, i'll do my part. studying for th sake of studying; at least it's better dhen dropping out right;| i'll still say;" I HATE SCHOOL. but at least i'll still do my homeworks (i realli hope that i can remember to do my homeworks narhs;!) tag replies xiangling: hahas; i scared ltr i forget marh;x &&no matter no matter; Saturday, July 12, 2008  tht's the path we've been through; aishiteru, 사랑해요 --- hav been pretty buzy this week; &finally i feel like posting ;} IMAOS. yea, whatever. nothing to post abouttttttttttttttttt;! i've been eating alot &putting on weight ;c ohyea: 7july: HAPPY birthday Remus brotherrrrrr;! stay cute brotherr;! thanks for companying me at times ;) 11july: HAPPY birthday Benjamin smilesmile;! stay cheerful Mrsmilesmile;! thanks for making me laughhhhh when i'm unhappy ;) sorry for not being able to go to ur party ;c 19july: HAPPY birthday XinYi neighbourr;! stay cute ;} thanks for all ur lame jokes ;X 27july: Happy birthday Camilla taopok;! stay cute &funny;! thanks for all bestie x) 29july: <u>HAPPY birthday mingkiat; oinkoink daddie;! HOHOHO;! stay oinkoink x) thanks for councilling(?) me xP --- see so many ppl's birthday on july ;C i'm ok hahas, shall end here for today ;} GOODBYE/ --- tag replies Lynn: thanks for inviting sister;! && aishiteru, 사랑해요 Wednesday, July 9, 2008 okay, ignore my previous previous post x) i didn't did anything stupid to myself. lols. erms, nth happen but i suddenly feel lyk posting. BLABLABLA. i've got something to share x) you'll LOVE it. ahahas, here: Brendon shared it wib me, find it nice so i shall share wib you guys toooooooo x} i took th trouble to upload it so u better like it;! GRRRS. joking narhs x) --- i've got too much things to post about. taketimetaketime, my photos wouldn't run away;! DUH, ok crazy girl lols. photos i shall upload it another time x) blablabla. --- but to me. (because idk anything) i think she's kinda, erms. poor thing? mayb you guys dun think it tht way./ but i can feel tht she's uber sad; disappointed. dis's jus wat i think x) --- tag replies yanqi: hahas, nth x) Tuesday, July 1, 2008 okay, i break my own rules of not bloggin until something happens x) HAHAHA. whatever! lols. okay, now i'm in school. havin lesson &it's uber BORING.! HAHAHA, gng crazy. nobody's listening! lols. okay nth much to say i shall continue again ltr when i reach home x) GOODBYE |
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